There's always something missing deep inside, I have this empty feeling and I hate it.
I have spent many years with a emptiness in me a hole. I tried to fill it with many things mostly self distructive. Even religion but never did anything help. Activities in pusuit of self fullfilment do not fill that void and I didn't find God pursuing selfish interest
I had to stop praying for my life to be a certain way I had to stop telling God how my life should go. I had to start asking God for how to trust in him and for courage to trust in him. I had to find the willingness to accept his will in my life and surrendar my need to have things my way. This was the hardest of all things to change and the easist thing to slip back into, thinking it should go my way.
I had to start to Look every day for Gods awesome presence in my life and others. And his power in your life fill that hole with God invite him in thats what belongs there is God but he has given you the choice we must ask him daily or some times for me every 5 minutes
Learn to think about others and their needs before yourself. It is by self forgetting that one awakens to eternal Light.
I have found being happy comes from doing the opposite thing that my selfish nature wants me to do. Think of God and others and not my self.
